🍃Sunday Speaks 6/10/24
🍃Sunday Speaks
6 October 2024
Check-in with me, how's you? How was your week and what are you looking forward to? How's you floating 🪼
Another beautiful clear day here on Gubbi Gubbi Country. It's New Moon. Set those intentions, know your goals, and lesgo!
This got a lil personal and noval-ish but ima roll with it 🪼🪼🪼
Soo I did it again today. I woke before 5, thanks kats, got up moving to avoid my brain, and started chasing priorities, before setting my compass and mapping my course.
Took the compost out and immediately started rotating, shuffling, resetting. Which lead me to checking the worms bins, and then watering them. Which lead me watering a few plants along the way, and then I pulled up as I was about to dive into repotting the Yacons, and rearrange that section of garden to try and fit metal 'raised bed' in that area, thats on a slope, would require a lot of brute energy.
Which is fine, it's actually the best time to do it, while the air is cool and the area is shaded, and generally speaking I'm manic-ish when I first wake.
The thing is tho, I want to map my days, map my weeks, and hopefully get to a stage where I can map months, and make plans, with action steps, and actually fucking execute it. Aaaaand I dunno actually achive something other than oiling the immediate squeakiest wheel. Bigger pictures. Meta goals. Dare I say it, *whispers* a five year plan 😱
Over the past year, my main barriers with this is force's out of my control, that requires all of me, have me stopping what I'm doing, not just in a moment, but whole days, or whole sections of a day. A lot of the time these require my capacity of emotional labour or invisible mental load.
Once outted from what I'm doing, I can't just jump back in and continue from where I was. A day away, can mean I have walk around in circles for day, doing little priorities which lead from one thing into another, into another, like this mornings circles, and then the next day I'll be like ok this, this, and this, course of action, go. But that course of action is only ever immediate future and has to have the previous tuning in.
Much like having a job outside of the home, would impeded momentum on a home project. (I'll be so fucked when I do start working outside of the home, I do need to for consistent financial independence). But because my job isn't official as such, my hours are flexible, my goals are not priorities, my time is not respected to some degree, I am taken for granted to some degree.
But also that flexibility (? lack of better word) is literally why I am even able to try, and to dream of what I want to achieve with Death by Plants.
I created Death by Plants to fit in around all these other things. Because there is no way I can hold down even shift work at the moment, because of the demands of these things. (again, better word than 'demands' would be good, they are demanding, but I don't mean this in a resented way, it's my support roles and a privilege to be the person doing it).
And this all ties into why I'm so passionate about teaching Permaculture too. There are so many people in care giver/support roles, who come from a place of low income lifestyle cultures, who may have the luxury of time blocks, but due to care roles, no income, and those cultures at play, remain at a certain level of existence for many years at a time. Practicing Permaculture won't solve all their problems but it's a great vehicle for change and spring board other things into motion.
So coming out of Dark Moon, out of the Work of Shadows, of the last week, stepping into New Moon, stepping into activation phase, setting goals and celebrating each step along the way.
From the Shadows my focus has been on my patterns of behaviour. Where am I leaning into feedback loops, where am I harvesting, am I seeing them for what they are, am I see potential as fact, or am I just being a goldfish doing the same circle work, enjoying the saftey and familiarity of it all. And as always finishing this phase with who am I, where am I, what do I want, am I aligned..
